When you’re used to replying with “OK” when asked “How are you?” or “How have you been?” you tend to think about the question a little bit more. Like, you know you’re not going to say “Great!” or even “Pretty good!” because the words just won’t come out naturally. These questions are just pleasantries, a common courtesy, and your answer is virtually meaningless to the person who’s asking most of the time, but somehow, when presented with that question, you’re forced to feel something. Maybe it’s just a split-second evaluation of what you’ve been up to. Is working 8 hours days of a lonely job you despise and then finding something to do afterwards to feel some semblance of joy before you fall asleep at midnight to do it all over again enough to answer with “Pretty good!” Not in my book.
This week I was offered a new position at a company I’ve been wanting to work for. While I’m not sure what the job will bring and I can’t say anything for sure, I think that I’ve broken the spell. After the good news, I’m all emoticon smilies and deep room cleans and taking extreme pleasure in eating banana cream pie and drinking tea. Yup, that’s my life now. That doesn’t sound like someone who’s just OK to me.